But in the quiet moments of the early morning I like to meditate and do some yoga asana. During the evenings I like to write (and I’m very excited because I bought a new (antique) writing desk on eBay and I pick it up today. Making time to write each day is really important.

I also love walking and cycling for some peace and quiet. Or just hanging out with my fluffy puddy cat!

All pretty boring stuff really but they’re the things I enjoy…

We will Nuke ourselves

We will slowly have less children and as people age the population will reduce through natural attrition.

With all the chemicals we are injesting, the rate of infertility is rising at a steep rate… this will have effects on reduced population growth

Nature is already working on things such as AIDS, Super Bugs, Robo Virus’s etc… so if we havent nuked ourselves, changes are nature will have a nasty little surprise waiting when we reach the magic number what ever that may be…..

The Earth can not sustain a human population of the size we are now, let alone more again. besides with the rate at which we are using every resource the planet has to offer we will have used up everything anyway… then what…
Eventually The EArth and Nature has to fight back it has happened before it will and must happen again, the question is when….

The third world
Anyone who wears Burberry
Women with Tattoo’s or ankle chains
The unemployed
Tree huggers
Life coaches
God squad

One down… GDay Zack… lol

I do enjoy saying hello to complete strangers during the warmer months, they are generally tourist, and havent come to terms with the Tasmanian way of things… it can be very funny….
They guy at the servo would come out with GDay Cobber…. totally perplexing many overseas tourist… Good value…
lol..

In comparison the day-to-day was more real and more difficult. A myriad of anxieties hit you all at once and then over and over again. It is a grieving process in many ways. Your future as you imagined it is gone. The end of your life no longer has a distant and vague sense to it. You see your loved ones going on without you and knowing they will suffer.

I lost my youngest brother when he was 17. I know the pain of those that continue on. You hate knowing you’ll cause the ones you love to go through so much pain.

I wish…

Candid Camera perhaps…

http://www.royalsapien.com/pop1/

It captures the pure mystery of 6 billion and counting people on this earth on a small computer screen.

An eighty year old man will have lived 2.5 billion seconds, yet there are 6.72 billion people in the world!! Makes you think.

For example, a friend of mine once told me that he would absolutely not go out of his way to greet someone who was skateboarding on the side of the road near he was walking. He told me he was football player (jugador de futbol americano) and that he would probably have nothing in common with a hippie skater boy. And he truly believed in what he was telling me. This is insane to me because I know through my few years of experience that everyone has commonalities. And besides, we learn from others’ differences anyways.

So great post CC.

Good grief…I thought, I was accident prone!!!

CC

Yes, I’ve cut ties with a bleeder who I have know for 33 years and she has become quite manipulative. It is really difficult finding out who your real friends are and there aren’t many left. Timing just is difficult and I’m really angry and hurt. Your dad is right…wise man…wise daughter!!

CC

I am glad that your punt went well and I like what you say about friendship. Being vulnerable and then getting hurt just sucks. And then, I don’t know how what I’ve said is going to get twisted or used against me. I just want to crawl into a corner and cry…just having a difficult time and this made it worse.

Thanks,
CC

Good points. I agree. I guess that part that hurt with this last thing is that I didn’t see it coming and was attacked in an email and was told that they did not want any contact anymore. This is a person that I had been corresponding by email and talking on the telephone with. I realize that it is her issues that came to this, yet I guess I feel used and frustrated because I wanted to take apart all of her points bit by bit. But, I knew that would not help matters. I think that I’m just really hurt which just makes me so angry that I allow myself to do that. I’m still trying to sort it out. Writing the extra post helped.

CC

I think they are bringing it back due to pressure from the music industry, the BBC announced today that the Xmas Top of the Pops 2 show, which they had cancelled, will be on this Xmas.

I can’t speak as a parent (for obvious reasons) so I’ll speak as a daughter and say just remember that she loves you and she is coming from a good place. Having said that, I can’t begin to imagine how hard it must be for you to remember that.

And that train/ bridge thing is a good idea! I might try that tomorrow.

Group scream anyone? No, really! We could all set a time and every one agree to scream!

Aaaah. Imagine the release.

I would add understanding and non judgement to that as well. And the ability to buy good presents.

I think you were completely right to cancel the meeting CC, essentially, if she’s not adding anything to your life, why bother.

I was ruthless two years ago with one friend who over time proved to be a ‘bleeder’ rather than a ‘feeder’ and I cut her out of my life.

And I knew it was the right thing to do when a few months later I wasn’t missing her at all. I was missing what we had years back but not her as a person.

My dad always says, you can have loads of friends but there are only ever a few mates and thats very true.

I wish this post took photos of people when they were reading it, there would be some very good grimaces I imagine.

I hope it gets better soon, and I hope you’ve learnt your lesson not to wonder in to any other gardens, stick to this one.

Accidents pour moi? None really (massively gripping the wooden table as I write this) I really have been lucky in that I haven’t had any broken bones, or stitches.

Which is just as well as my pain threshold is through the floor.

You wait, I’ll get run over by a bus now.

Its great publicity for show though isn’t it, no wonder they’ve bought it back.

I don’t see why it is making a comeback, surely the reason they ditched it was because of low viewing figures and I can’t see how that has suddenly changed.

I think its demise was because of how easily accessible pop videos or live performances are nowadays. There’s a show of similar ilk on most channels.

I remember the days when we used to ‘tape’ the UK top 40 on the radio on the Sunday. Quality.

Shows I’d bring back? Dungeons and dragons - the cartoon and TFI Friday.

And Dallas.