Go!Tell me what you think?
June 4th, 2008 by Mighty MorganMighty Morgan here!
Richard Bach once wrote “Don’t argue for your limitations”
I know through my own life experiences that I have lived in a bubble of beliefs created by others that never permitted me to see life as anything more then limitations. I didn’t know I had a choice to believe in anything other then what was handed down to me and went through the motions of life always feeling a bit disconnected from it all.
June 28th will be exactly one year since I came online with my my first blog “The Process of a Miracle…a 30 Day Experiment. It started out as a desperate plea to the universe to help me change the dynamics of my life, because if the struggle and sacrifice of everyday living was all that this life equated too, I was done.
I find it amazing at how much my life has changed and the internal changes that came about within me through the process as well. I learned more then anything that the beliefs we hold, that we cling too are often the very limitations we play out in our daily lives.
When I became willing to change my beliefs from the inside, everything outside of me changed….for the better.
One example of a change that occurred was that for years I was classified as “Bipolar”. If I collected all the medical files from all the psychiatrist’s and psychologist’s through out the years, I would imagine they could stack up to be roughly a few feet tall. Today I believe firmly that the mental illness that had caused me so much pain and misery in the past was a mere reflection of inner discontent based upon warped beliefs and ideas.
When I started the experiment I stopped taking any type of “mental meds” and almost a year later I still have absolutely no need for them in any way shape or form. My experience allowed me to discover that when I began to change the dynamics of what and how I believed, the symptoms that had been present for so long dissolved.
What do you think??? Is this possible or am I just stark raving mad? 
Morgan you are mad but I am totally nuts so dont worry about it…
I like the fact I am different and people simple cant put me into a pigeon hole which seems to fit and if they do I change immediately..
you are so right that the change has to start from the inside…
You cant expect people to see you any different than what you offer them…
I guess the hardest thing is knowing where and how to start..
but you my friend are a glowing example of what can be acheived if we are honest with ourselves…
I do find the journey you have undertaken to be both inspiring and challenging…
and much respect to you and a huge hug…
YOU ROCK GIRL!!!!!
Aussie as long as were both nuts….all is well on Earth
I like the fact that your different you are a shining example of a strong woman who just won’t allow others to sway your inner sense of knowing who you are…..gives me an ideal to look up to 
oh my!
thank you Morgan
You is like totally bonkers youz is MM! Off ov your nuts you are!
Still, my David reckons right that when he is getting a cold he can beat it wiv just the power of positive thinkink an that, an no medicine or nuffink he does!
So like last night when I was tuckin im up in bed an he was sneezin an coffin everywhere, blowin is nose like an that, I says to im right, “so where’s all that positive thinkink gettin you now David right?”
An he says, “I ain’t not got no cold Elts,” as he dranked is Lemsip wot I ad made for im.
“You is off ov your t!ts you is David!, just like that Mighty Morgan” I says back, an he is an all!
ha ha ha ……..I was once told if I think I’m nuts, chances are I’m not. people who are really crazy are often the last to realize it…I’m sure though that your David and I would get along fine…since were both off out rockers!
If you were diagnosed properly which is difficult with substance abuse, then I would be very wary of being off medications. However, if it works for you the more power to you. Please, just be very careful and watch for symptoms. It could very well have been that you were misdiagnosed. It is possible and you are not stark raving mad if you are on medications or not. Well, you could be in a different sense…but…oh, never mind. *hugs*
Thanks for your concerns……I was diagnosed and diagnosed and diagnosed again and again, with the knowledge of my substance abuse being incorporated. As for the symptoms for the past year I have not had one manic episode, nor do I feel as though I will again…it’s almost as if something shifted and I knew i would never be subject to the distress of the disorder again…as for the stark raving mad part…I guess I am in my own special way….
Thanks for the input!
Hugs Back
You are welcome. I think that you were misdiagnosed, so little is actually known and then you add in the substance abuse. And there are a lot of less than helpful or skilled practioners out there. I really wish you the best. Congratulations!!! I really admire what you have done with turning your life around. By the way, I’m stark raving mad too!! Life is more fun that way.
They way I look at it now….I was definitely misdiagnosed….although I had all the classic symptoms…insane mania spiraling into debilitating depression, loss of interest in life, lost jobs, just not caring weather I lived or died….all of it pointed to a greater dilemma that no type of medicine could ever fix. All the doctor’s ever did was perpetuate the idea that there was something mentally wrong with me and tried to put a band-aid on it all with a million and one prescriptions…….
I got sick of being sick and I looked for other ways to manage the symptoms……..I found out later on that the symptoms were only a manifestation of a deeper cause for the problems……my inability to be able to cope with life with the information I had available to me, when I started changing my beliefs, strangely enough the symptoms fell away.
But I do agree with you in that life is much more fun being stark raving mad…..if not fun…. interesting
and you can get away with things
One of the biggest changes I’ve made about the way I think lately is realizing that the people in my life that I thought were out to get me, punish me, make my life hell, etc. were doing it out of their own issues and that it wasn’t a personal attack on me. Once I started looking at these conflicts as being about them and not about me, I was able to drop some of my defensiveness and approach the situations from a more rational perspective.
Sometimes you kinda have to add a little chlorine to your thought pool.
I like the idea of “adding chlorine to the thought pool” Sometimes it’s hard to get out of our own ways when approaching people, circumstances and situations, but just as you mentioned, when you can allow others to be who they are and separate the issues at hand…….then sometimes it becomes easier to see the situation for what it is……about us…NOT them
Exactly. The experiences that helped me come to this conclusion stem from two custody battles that I’ve been dealing with. Both of the fathers have pretty much waged a war on me and I was stressed out, depressed, angry and frustrated with the things they were doing to me and saying about me. I hated that I couldn’t make them stop and I was losing my mind over trying to defend myself. Finally, I decided that rather than trying to get revenge on them and discredit them, it was best to just let them behave however they felt they needed to in order to try and fill whatever void or cope with whatever feelings they had towards me. Eventually, I didn’t need to defend myself anymore and I didn’t need to stoop to their level. It got to the point where their actions spoke for themselves so I didn’t need to run around (figuratively) yelling about what liars they were and how mean they were being.
I even use a little visual stimulation to help me stay in that mind frame. Whenever they pull another one of their stunts, before I react I just get a mental image of them and in that image they’re filled with all kinds of black gunk and sludge which represents their own toxicity. I know it sounds silly and I’m not usually a “visualization” type person but I think of it more like a mnemonic device, those little tricks you use to remember things like the names of all 50 states.
Good for you…..one thing that I have learned is that I don’t have to show others what “jerks” they may be…..because they are quite capable of doing of themselves…glad that it all worked out for you in the end.
What a profound and important thing to learn. I wish more people would be able to do that and countries.
hey April! Awesomeness. GREAT comment. Wow.
You said, “Once I started looking at these conflicts as being about them and not about me, I was able to drop some of my defensiveness and approach the situations from a more rational perspective.”
I may quote you.
April…I’m with the Blue Collar Goddess on this one…very well said and very well done!
Hi MM - that’s great! More rattle (blogging and talking) since rattling less (the pills rattling around your tummy!) Congrats.
I’m a bloke so I’ve always got flu - no namby pamby colds here!!
Strong mind, you have…Yoda has been training me.
As some of my closest friends like to tell me, “Sarah, you’re all right. It’s the world that’s all wrong.”
I’m extraordinarily proud of you.
We’re sisters in arms, with this thing.
Having been clinically diagnosed as a raving lunatic myself, I understand and have compassion (love that word, it’s the word of the day!) for you. Let us also have compassion and empathy for those of us who struggle out “there” with chemical imbalances that can only be treated with chemicals. Just as a diabetic cannot live without insulin, there are many good people who cannot live a comfortable life (I never use the word “normal” because that’s just insulting) without lithium, etc.
You became “aware” and conscious of your inner demons and allowed your higher self to step in and moderate your being. It took you several years to get to a point of “no return” and you did heal. You are healing.
This makes you incredibly rare.
I could site several medical texts and authors with medical degrees who truly believe that people are capable of healing themselves from a variety of illnesses, including mental illness, but why bother? You’re doing it. And you’re amazing. Just keep sharing who you are, and those who need to find you, will.
As our Aussie said, YOU ROCK!
Thanks Blue Collar Goddess…..I am fortunate this I know and something that i do not take for granted. I would never look down upon anyone that chooses to take medication…..everything has a place in this world. For me though I am just amazed at the power of the mind body connection and how beliefs, thoughts and ideas take such a toll on a person.
I would never suggest to anyone to do what I did….because I know that in the past when off meds…i would get CUCKOO…i guess I had to just get to that point in time when being tired of being sick and tired was a motivating factor to start looking for alternative methods to treat my dis-eases
btw…..YOU ROCK TOO!!!!!!!!!!!
Hiya Mighty and YES it is possible - for sure, as you believe it to be!
Almost 1 year already eh! Times a flying by - onwards n upwards.
I know…I know…sometimes I can’t even believe all of the changes that have occurred in the pat year…it sometime amazes me as well as freaks me out….glad you both popped in for a moment….
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I applaud you Morgan. That is some achievement and one that not so many are willing to take on. You are a very courageous woman who can inspire with the leadership qualities you have shown here. Congrats to you and (((HUGS))) for being you!!
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